I should have posted this last Friday and apologize I didn’t make time for it. Wednesday morning I woke up and instantly thought, “I am sick of feeling hungry. I’m tired of this fast.” That was how I felt, I wanted it to be over. However, one of my dear friends had agreed to fast with me that day so I knew I wanted to continue and fast with her, even though we were 10,000 miles a part. The day ended up being awesome and I got an amazing email from my dear friend sharing with me how her day was. I’m grateful for her and I’m grateful that God has blessed me with the best friends in the entire world. What a blessing to share that experience with an amazing, Godly woman?!
Thursday I woke up and instantly thanked God for the week. While I was very ready to go back to my regular eating schedule, I loved that my priority for the week was time with God. I suppose one of the many things I learned was my life outside of fasting doesn’t always put time with God at the center. I always try to make decisions that honor God and always try to put service to Him first but I don’t put spending time with Him first and that needs to change. If I compare this to my relationships with one of my friends, I think that while they would appreciate that I was trying to honor them and serve them, I know that above all they would just want to spend time with me. They would want to talk with me, and they would want to hear what is one my heart. I picture it as if I am running around trying to do 100 things at once while God is just asking me to come sit on the couch to talk for a bit. If I think about it like that then I need to make a few changes in how I spend my time. I need to spend more time in conversation with God and more time in His Word and less time moving around, giving myself lists and lists of things that need to be done. I know that serving God and kids are wonderful and truly pleasing to God but they can’t take over to the point where I am not spending quality time with God.
I’m not sure when I’ll do another week long fast but I will definitely make fasting a bigger part of my life. I read Isaiah 58 and wonder why it took me this long to fast in the first place.
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ReplyDeleteTrying to live like Mary in a Martha world....
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K
I LOVE this post Cara. You said: "I always try to make decisions that honor God and always try to put service to Him first but I don’t put spending time with Him first and that needs to change... I need to spend more time in conversation with God and more time in His Word and less time moving around, giving myself lists and lists of things that need to be done."
ReplyDeleteI pray that you will have the strength to live out this conviction in your daily life. One of my favorite bible passages is in John 15. "Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. "