I’m sorry it has been awhile since I last wrote. This week was great and flew by just like the rest. I will say however, that the week started out on a difficult note and left me with a lot to think about.
Last Monday, Julius (my co-worker) and I took one of our kids to the clinic for a check-up. Derrick is 13 years old and is HIV positive. Upon arriving at the clinic we were met by his counselor who informed us that they would not be giving Derrick any more medication because he had refused to take the medication they had given him before. She went on to tell us that he has wasted hundreds of dollars in medication and that his grandmother refuses to allow him to take the medication they give him. After going to his grandmother’s house to ask about the medication, we learned that she does in fact refuse to let him take his medicine because she is scared of the side affects and thinks that medicine with side affects cannot be good for Derrick. We went back to the clinic and after a few more hours, discovered that the situation is extremely complicated and frustrating. Derrick has told several counselors at the clinic stories about not being fed, not having money for school fees and other nonsense. Derrick is sponsored by the school and has plenty to eat. In fact he gets a special diet and takes food home with him. At the end of the day the details of the lies don’t matter, it only matters that a 13-year-old boy who is sick with HIV is so messed up that he is lying to the only people trying to help him. Julius and I left extremely frustrated with the situation. It makes me sad and angry. I am sad that we live in such a broken world, and I am angry that I don’t know what to do. We can’t ignore Derrick, we can’t leave him to be on his own, but at the same time how do you help somebody who leads you in circles with lies and inaccurate information?
This is just one story but there are many more. The kids here are broken. It is really hard not to get mad at Derrick and say that we won’t spend out time on such kids, but the truth of the matter is that Derrick is one of God’s children and grace says that while he doesn’t deserve our help and love, we will provide it to him regardless. Derrick needs love and I pray and trust that God would give me wisdom on how to love Derrick.
That is very well-said. "the truth of the matter is that Derrick is one of God's children and grace says that while he doesn't deserve our help and love, we will provide it to him regardless."
ReplyDeleteI don't think I have anyone in my life right now who is hard to love, but when I do, I want to put that into action with as much as grace as you have.